Friday, October 23, 2009

Bringing home baby!

It is not so crazy to imagine that it has taken me this long to jot down what has been happening these last few weeks. WOW how life changes once a new baby is brought home. Being pregnant even with all it's inconveniences seems so much more appealing now. 
I was induced on the 10th of Oct due to some tests that came back alarmingly high. It seemed as though my liver decided to shut down and not filter things correctly. Hence the uncontrollable itch in my feet and hands. When my midwife got my results back she had me induced within the hour. Wyatt also had a bowel movement before birth which she discovered once she had broken my water. FUN! The pain of contractions this time so much more intense. I didn't think it could hurt any more then it did but after a few min of contractions I decided to get an epidural. Best decision of my life! I had him a little past ten that night after pushing for only thirty min. Morgan's Mother and Aunt were there along with my step Mother and Father who was hiding by the door. I didn't know he was there till I let out the F bomb and he shouted from the door! I then decided I wanted to retain my placenta and it took another forty five min to remove it.... Piece by piece! All is well both with baby and me thank goodness. 
Morgan is a huge help and thoughtful of my need to sleep. he takes care of the older kids and takes baby so I can get in naps. I love him for his efforts but I am still so tired. Can't imagine why?? 

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Pregnancy update

Right when I start to enjoy this pregnancy, my body quits on me. I have been having terrible pain in my left side. It starts in my lower back and moves into my left hip and shoots sharp pain down my left leg. I sometimes collapse the pain is bad I can't hold myself up. I have been to a physical therapist and really what can they do... move baby? This is just a little reminder of how grateful I am for modern medication. For painkillers and a soft bed at night. Also cartoons to entertain my little ones while I try and stay still. LOL like that is really possible right? 
But these days I do feel like a lot of these modern comforts are overlooked and taken advantage of. Our mothers - mothers did the laundry by hand! Cooked three meals a day and had a ton of kids running at her feet without means to keep them busy for two seconds so she could breath. Chores were endless and yet she always looked nice and something was always cooking in the oven. She walked to the grocery store and heaven knows what else. 
So I should not complain. I love my washer and dryer, takeout, TV, and yes .... ear plugs!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Something to Ponder


LESSON AIM

1.       We will be given an opportunity to learn some of the ways GOD works in our midst, particularly in our disappointments, to reward us for our faithfulness.

 

KEEP IN MIND

“But the angel said unto him, Fear not, Zacharias: for thy prayer is heard; and thy wife Elisabeth shall bear thee a son, and thou shalt call his name John” (Luke 1:13).

  

The biblical content of this lesson is taken from the first chapter of Luke. In the selected passages, we see Elisabeth and Zacharias, who were faithful and righteous even though childless in their old age (vv.5-7). As we move along in the text, we read of Zacharias serving in the temple and encountering an angel of the LORD in the process (vv.8-11). We further read that Zacharias was afraid, but that the angel told him that he and Elisabeth would have a son, John (vv.12-14). Elisabeth’s child leaped in her womb when she received a visit from Mary (v.41a). Filled with the HOLY SPIRIT, Elisabeth blessed Mary and the child she was carrying and acknowledged the child as her LORD (vv.41b-45). When Elisabeth gave birth to a son, her neighbors and relatives rejoiced with her (vv. 57-58).

In this lesson, we see the response of the priest Zacharias to GOD’S answer to Israel’s hope. Here was a man who served daily in the temple, showing in his ministrations the promise of the Messiah to Israel. Yet one cannot help but wonder if he really expected the realization and actualization of his symbolic expression. We sometimes serve in hope but fail to grasp its actualization. But whether we grasp the actualization or not, what GOD seems to require of us is faithfulness in our service. In this lesson, we learn that GOD will respond to us if we remain faithful. We also learn that what may seem impossible with us is possible with GOD. The lesson also shows us that there is a common thread that runs through the lives of the people whom GOD chooses to use. There is a spirit of joy the flows from actualization to actualization as GOD’S promise becomes real in each of our lives. Look at the joy that came through the manifestation of the promise of GOD. First to Elisabeth, then to Mary, then to the child in the womb, and then to Zacharias and the people at the birth of John. WHAT A GOD!  

 

By way of background, Zacharias and his wife were old when the angel Gabriel announced that “thy wife Elisabeth shall bear thee a son, and thou shalt call his name John” (Luke 1:13). The announcement came while Zacharias was going about his normal priestly duties in the temple. Zacharias knew that if he and Elisabeth were to have a child at their age, it would require a miracle of divine intervention. Moreover, Zacharias remembered that his wife had been barren all her life. Consequently, his response to the angel’s announcement is almost predictable. Upon hearing the angel’s promise, Zacharias’ response is one of awe, mixed with doubt and disbelief. His question, though understandable, nonetheless begs for proof: “Whereby shall I know this? For I am an old man, and my wife well stricken in years” (v.18).

Zacharias’ response is a reminder that even good and faithful people have doubts. It may be that by the time of their mid-life, Zacharias and Elisabeth had stopped praying for a child. But GOD refused to forget the prayers of their more youthful days and used this faithful couple in HIS unfolding plan of salvation.

  

1.       FAITHFUL AND RIGHTEOUS, BUT CHILDLESS (Luke 1:5-7)

 Elisabeth and Zacharias were faithful and righteous in their living, and they were childless in their old age—a perfect situation for the GOD who keeps promises and works miracles to exercise HIS creative will.

Zacharias, whose name means “GOD remembers,” along with his wife Elisabeth, whose name carries the flavor of  “my GOD is the absolutely Faithful One,” was a model of Jewish piety. They were truly and wholly devoted to GOD and to HIS service. They lived moral and responsible lives before both their peers and GOD. “They were both righteous before GOD, walking in all the commandments and ordinances of the LORD blameless” (v.6).

Zacharias was doubly distinguished in that he was a priest married to a priest’s daughter. Likewise, Elisabeth was doubly distinguished in that she was the proverbial “virtuous woman” (Proverbs 31:10), who in the folklore of that day “deserved to be married to a priest.” Obviously, the child envisioned in GOD’S mind would descend from priestly origins.

But hovering over the beauty of Zacharias and Elisabeth’s devout life, and GOD’S yet unannounced promise and plan, was the cloud of Elisabeth’s barrenness. Although they prayed fervently for a child (v.13), the couple’s advanced age canceled any dreams they may have had to be the parents or ancestors of the long-awaited Messiah. What a disappointment! For all practical purposes, nature had spoken; Zacharias and Elisabeth were past the age of bearing children.

It is a real stretch of faith to pray for a change in what nature has already declared finished. Zacharias and Elisabeth, aware of their old age, had probably given up on ever having children of their own. Surely their disappointment must have been great. Yet they did not allow their disappointment to become an occasion for bitterness nor a reason to withdraw their service and devotion to GOD. They remained faithful to GOD. Zacharias continued to perform his temple service. Elisabeth managed her barrenness with poise and dignity while she fulfilled her vows of being the loyal wife of a busy priest.

 

2.       LISTENING AND RESPONDING TO AN ANGEL WHILE SERVING  IN THE TEMPLE (vv.8-11)

While Zacharias was performing his routine duties as a temple priest, an angel of the LORD appeared and spoke to him. The angel appeared and spoke on the day when it was Zacharias’s turn to burn incense. This is significant because, given the number of priests who rendered service in the temple, a priest was privileged to burn incense only once in a lifetime. Consequently, this was a special day for Zacharias. In addition, it was a unique moment for GOD to speak to Zacharias from “the right side of the altar of incense” (see v.11).

It is also interesting to note that GOD not only chose to speak to Zacharias on this high day in his life; HE also chose a day to speak when “the whole multitude of the people were praying without at the time of incense” (.1:10). GOD tends always to speak when the whole church prays.

 

3.       ZACHARIAS AND ELISABETH ARE PROMISED A SON (vv.12-14)

 Zacharias’s natural response immediately upon seeing the angel was one of uneasiness mixed with fear. The angel’s appearance was so sudden and unexpected. Zacharias was not prepared to see what he saw, nor to hear what he heard. After all, he was deeply involved in representing the people to GOD and praying for Israel’s redemption. But GOD is always gracious and quick to reassure those who walk before HIM in righteousness.

The angel speaks comfortingly to Zacharias. The angel’s words of comfort confirmed that Zacharias’s long-standing prayer had been heard. In the same breath, the angel announced that Zacharias and his wife Elisabeth would be blessed with a son whose future would be linked with the messianic redemption of Israel. The birth of such a son, the angel concluded, would be cause for joy and great celebration.

 

4.       ELISABETH VISITS MARY (v.41a)

 During the time of her pregnancy, Elisabeth received a visit from Mary, who was also overwhelmed by an unusual pregnancy of her own. Upon Elisabeth’s hearing Mary’s greeting, the child within her “leaped” and moved with joy on her womb, causing her to surrender her thought and speech for use by the HOLY SPIRIT.

 

5.       ELISABETH BLESSES MARY (vv.41b-45)

 Filled with the HOLY SPIRIT, Elisabeth blessed Mary and the child Mary was carrying. Expressing the generosity of her spirit, Elisabeth is quick and grateful to acknowledge Mary as the mother of the promised Messiah, whom she recognizes in verse 43 as “my LORD.” Finally, in verse 45 (NIV), Elisabeth blesses and commends Mary for believing that what the LORD has said to her will be accomplished.

 

6.       A  TIME TO REJOICE  (vv.57-58)

 The dramatic months of suspense and holy drama passed, and Elisabeth gave birth to a son. GOD’S promises had been fulfilled, and Elisabeth’s “neighbors and cousins heard how the LORD had shown great mercy upon her; and they rejoiced with her.”

Whenever GOD’S activity and will are manifested, it is a time for rejoicing; how much more so when GOD’S activity and will are symbolized in the birth of a child. The birth of a child is refreshing and renewing to people in almost any family or group. It is a time to rejoice—and especially so when a child is born to parents who, like Zacharias and Elisabeth, are “both righteous before GOD” (v.6).

 

Quite often, couples wanting children of their own grow bitter and distance themselves from GOD upon learning that they cannot have children. Rearing children on one’s old age is also a challenge. Zacharias and Elisabeth, however, remind us that barrenness need not be the occasion for forfeiting one’s faith inn GOD. Barrenness may well be a time for drawing near to GOD in hope and inn the confidence that our times are in GOD’S hands.

Moreover, the increasing number of grandparents who today are challenged to rear their grandchildren will find the story of Zacharias and Elisabeth to be a refreshing source of encouragement.

May those couples who are having difficulty conceiving children ponder Zacharias’s and Elisabeth’s story. May they take courage and wait patiently for GOD to work things out for their good.

Who new sending your children to school for the first time could be both so very sad and yet so very exciting! Josyah started Kindergarten this last week. On the first day he wanted to just get out and walk to the doors himself. He told me " I got it Mom"! SAD!! My little man is growing up and I am not convinced I am ready for it. He did tell me after school that he missed me and that he didn't think that school was "SO LONG"! Bless his heart he missed his mommy! He is so cute in his little backpack walking into that HUGE school. He gets so excited to tell me about his day and that is just so wonderful feeling. I thought I would miss him more then I do. Is that wrong? Who knows except the house is so much quieter and peaceful without the two boys fighting. i do have to say getting up to an alarm is not an easy task for me. I have to remind myself not to hit snooze.... more then once that is! I love making his little lunch and him telling me what he ate. He couldn't open his drink though and I didn't realize it till he said " MOM I GET SO THIRSTY"! SAD bad mommy bad! Added to grocery list... Capri Sun! 

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Some days your the windshield, other days your the bug!

It is funny how the miracle of life can be such a pain in the .... ALL OVER! I think the Lord makes you forget how horrible carrying human life is. I am now 30 weeks! YAY I am dilated to a four and have torn a ligament in my pelvic area. This was God's way of getting me to slow down. It is nice not chasing the three extra kids around and being able to put my feet up mid afternoon while the little ones sleep. Josyah is such a huge help with getting things for me and learning to answer the phone so i don't have to chase it down. Hyrum has just been super clingy. I wonder sometimes if he suspects a huge change on the horizon. I don't think he will handle it very well. 

Monday, July 20, 2009

A great weekend

I just spent the weekend with my older sister Kristine who I haven't in the past been on the best terms with. But this weekend was so great. We just hung out and talked, did some shopping and she took wonderful pictures of the boys. She has adopted this little boy named Mark Jackson who is 11 months old. He is such a doll. He has the cutest little face. I can't believe her dreams of becoming a mother are finally happening. I am so grateful for the ability to have children I forget what a blessing it is. I couldn't imagine the struggles of not being able to have children or struggling to get pregnant. 

Thursday, July 9, 2009

July 9 2009

I have been taking Tylenol PM the last couple nights just to sleep. It's not that I can't get into a comfortable position it's that I can't shut my brain down at all. The list of things is too long and my day's are way to short. All the yard work has to wait till it cools down outside and it puts this time crunch on it. 
My tomato's are coming in great and so are my peppers but I think I have killed my strawberries or at least done something to prevent them from growing berries. I did discover that my tree out front was in fact a cherrie tree which is way exciting. This years all have worms but that doesn't stop the boys from eating them. A little protein never hurt anyone right?? 
Morgan's backpacking/four-wheeling trip in coming up next weekend and i hope he decides not to go. I hate when he is out of town. Something always seems to go wrong and I can't handle much without him by my side. He is the stronger of us two and I depend on him every moment. But I have no desire to carry my weight up a mountain even if the view is magical!  

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

The first is the hardest

I am so grateful it is summer! I love sending my boys outside to play. Josyah is such an outside kinda boy, where Hyrum prefers to come in and out often. Josyah loves riding his bike and discovering new things. He is so smart, he took his own training wheels off his bike. He just went to the garage found a tool that worked and took them off and just took off on two wheels. He is truly an amazing child. Hyrum is Morgan's "mini-me". He is soft hearted and loving. He is independent and plays well just with himself. He would have made a great only child. It is sad that his red hair is fading into a lighter shade but maybe this next one will have raging red hair!