As we start this new season, and the leaves have about disappeared, I am starting to reflect on this past year and all that has been changing in our lives. Changes that are just as obvious as the leaves falling.
My baby is just so big. I look back to Oct of last year and think how scared i was to bring home a third child. How was I ever going to raise another boy to be a good man and a strong priesthood holder? I have learned many lessons in the six years that i have had children. Poor Josyah was my testing child, as I learned to be a good mother and find balance in being a wife, mother and Evaune. I have to say I am stilling learning and have a far way to go. I love the saying, "You learn something new everyday", and boy is that true.
For instance today I have learned that no matter how many fights you break up, they are boys and are going to continue to fight till you TEACH them to "Work it out"! Now this is easier said then done. I find it difficult to not yell into the backseat as Josyah and Hyrum are yelling at each other fighting and Wyatt is crying. I seem to have the control to stay out of it for only a few min before I step in and start yelling at them both. Doesn't make sense. Teach your children NOT to yell by what .... yelling at them not to yell!!
With Wyatt now walking all over the place, I am reminded once again that NOTHING in your house that is within reach of a 1 yr old is safe. It is all fair game in his eyes. If he can reach it, it is his to play with and put it in his mouth. I have also noticed by the dirt on his white socks and now brown knees, how dirty my floors are. As clean as my house may look my floors are gross and dirty. For this reason I put in slate so no matter if they were dirty, NO ONE would know! Dusting, laundry (that is endless), and everything else on my plate (or should I say platter) is just flat out more important then clean floors. So I say.... whatever! I then buy bleach and pretend when I am folding my little ones clothing that his socks are clean because my floors are clean! Wyatt is a calm in the storm. Tender,cuddly, and so sweet. He warms my heart. I sometimes sneak into his room when I get home just to rock him. He is my last and I cherish every moment with him. He is all over the place and into everything. He loves shoes and hats and anything else he can put on his body somewhere. He isn't a huge eater, which is a straight Hyrum has but not Josyah in the least.
Josyah is now in 1st grade. With this comes home work and reading time and PTA. He is so strong minded, and needs to know why. If he understands he will follow. If he does not understand he will fight and complain till he does understand. He is smart and kind and tender. He also is so stubborn and hardheaded and determined. He will accomplish great things in his life. He has always been so smart and such a fast learner. He picks things up just by watching his father do it first. he took his own training wheels off and just decided one day he was going to do it without them. This child means so much to me. he is my first and i have enjoyed every moment with him. I will continue to enjoy every moment with him.
Hyrum is a tender soul. He loves his Mom and Dad. He adores Josyah and looks up to him in every way. He says "I love you, and I will miss you", every time I go to work or Josyah goes to school. He is a true blessing to our house and brings such a sweet spirit into our lives. I am amazed daily on how good his speech is improving. He is not afraid to say a word again and again till he gets it. He loves pre-school (only with his blanket in his backpack). He loves his friend Holden, and asks to play with him every day. When it is time for Holden to leave he cry's and try's to trap him in the house. it is so cute and sad. He reminds me that we need to read scriptures and say our prayers. He is wonderful!
I am struggling. I feel as if I am lost in the sea of motherhood. I cant seem to find time to do things, anything to sort out the confusion in my head. The noise is so loud at times i struggle to hear anything else around me. I have found that sleep is a thing in the past without medication of some sort. Tylenol PM is fantastic!!
As it starts to snow here I am once again brought to ponder the marvels in life. I do cherish every moment with my children. I love being a Mother and caretaker. If only my worries would too pass just like the seasons.
